walk

walk beside Him obediently, without straying.

because you live.

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

perdonare

I finally saw it. After a year. What a discovery.

http://thisfoolsdream.blogspot.com/

Not a fool anymore. forgive me, kyros.

the melody

when tears flow a melody down,
could almost taste the thread of bitter regret
with every pore on bare flesh.
it felt so exposed, naked.
uncanny mint chill.

an illusion, a dream.
all a delusion.

every belief,
every promise,
every vow,
every truth.
a lie.

what is trust then?
is there Love, as so?
these aren't even worth mentioning in this polluted cosmos.
these doesnt exist as reality anymore.
because of man.
with their worldy desires and ambitions.

even tears, so pure
tastes so bitter.

i have seen the hideous face of man,
it comes straight from the heart.
i have understand the downright ugly nature of man.


seen enough in the mirror,
heard enough of the iniquitous inner voice
i have understood myself.

this time, this time.
relieve the old sin of Adam and Eve,
the growing temptation,
the desire to be omnipotent.
the yearn for wisdom and vision and sight
the fall of man-kind is
yet, a new beginning.

i see your sardonic smile,
i breathe the lingering evil mist.

mingle, mingle.
in the icy cold fiery hatred of the World,
and therefore, thee shall hold.

my mask.

i probably tell them its just random lyrics of a song.

heaven

i tear in silence,
laugh in salient.

i do scream in agony,
slash till i bleed.
but i do that in silence too.

i burn in hell,
feed the maggots,
try to remain as quiet as possible.
lets not disturb them shall we?

it looks like my soul is half devoured.
dangling pieces of the ruin lay, dangling.
yet i laugh, i really did.

sealed in a deadly dome,
spears, swords, daggers, words.
cut into me.
but i am already immuned.

my soul already stolen from me,
my flesh, yours to play with.

my only companion,
probably this vented village.
yet i find no comfort in this emotion-less.
maybe that's why i can confine.

only the faithful will stay.
are there none?

serenity.

now.

deafening rhythm and noise,
the usual reflex.
yet all it was, a melodious silence.

the twin tools of comfort,
my own world.
my thoughts. griefing lamentations.

was it regret,
or?

again, oblivious to hard feelings,
insensitive splats,
yet. touched by some cares.
although held back by helplessness,
willing shares of woes.
my gratitute, unsaid.
untold, unshown.
appreciated

nonetheless,
inevitable hostility on my part.
understood i hope.

raging fragments
shreded souls,
lost memories,
what do i do?

choices it seems, i had.
all i wanted, be fair
her piece i will listen.
her thoughts i must understand,
her decision, mine.
or was it so?
i didnt know.

the beginning started here.
i was loss for words,
for help,
for love,
actions.

we could no longer delay.
the hourglass spinning my misery,
hers.
we knew.

we were slipping,
reluctance, yet afraid.
learn from mistakes?
we knew the roots, why.
countless episodes,
reasons.
conclusion.

before the beginning was rashness,
we defeated friend.
too quickly.
too fast to even know each other.
we admitted.
feelings took to sprints,
we soar so high.
thats why we fell.

the end is right.
she is right,
i am.

what is love?
is love which is not everlasting, love?

after the end,
everything settles,
it all seems so peaceful now.
2 weeks of hell,
now im back to my life.
with friends, close friends, soulmates.
i had so willingly relied on.

friendship love.
the open doors
thats mine.

and now,
adresu dances in the rain
the way he is, wants, and used to be.

Over You

Daughtry - Over You

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee

[Chorus]
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for meee


[Chorus]
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…

bold.

nothing else matters. He has already done it all.

when help arrives.

Our Help In Time Of Need
Hebrews 4:16
16Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain
mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

If you are facing a time of need right now in your life, I want you to know
that you have a standing invitation from your heavenly Father to come
boldly to the throne of grace to obtain mercy and find grace to help in
time of need.


The phrase "help in time of need" means that you get healing when you are
sick, provisions when you are in lack, restoration when your relationship
with a loved one breaks down, and favour when news of retrenchment or bad
prospects is rife.


"Pastor Prince, how can I come boldly especially since I have been a lousy,
sinful Christian?"


You can come boldly because you come to God by the blood of Jesus Christ
and not by how you have lived your life. So whenever you come into God's
presence, you don't have to be afraid that your sins will be shown up
because the blood of Jesus has removed every one of them. God cannot detect
even one single speck of sin because He sees only the blood of His Son that
has been shed for your total forgiveness and acceptance.


My friend, when you have failed and need mercy, God's Word assures you that
you will find mercy when you come boldly to God. Mercy means that you don't
get the bad things you deserve, such as condemnation, poverty, failure,
loss and even death.


And mercy is not the only thing that you will obtain when you come boldly
to God. You will also find grace. Grace means that you get the good things
that you don't deserve, such as health, protection, anointing, favour, good
success and life more abundant.


So come boldly to the One who loves you passionately, unconditionally and
with an undying love. Come boldly to Him who knows everything about your
situation and has the solution. He has wisdom far beyond that doctor you
highly respect, that lawyer you greatly honour and the best experts you can
consult. Beloved, come boldly to the throne of grace to obtain mercy and
grace to help in your time of need!

sugar rush.

be now, the destitute of love.
trapped in sands of time, the devoid hearted.
beneath the levitating heaven
the wrenching valley,
lay my bench in the park.

Exacerbated,
your words were salt.
depreciate my pride, i rot from the sauve.
intensity of internal differences,
the haughty stoic.
my drapes, remains of the intrinsic carnage.

i lay an infinity away,
the exasperation of your thoughts,
the louse in your eyes.

i hold the plauge of pococurantism.
the definite dice of hope-lessness.
the supposed shadow of your beliefs, expectations.
you embraced Big,
i was, infact small.

i was just not myself.

Casting Crowns , Who Am I

Casting Crowns , Who Am I

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.

Psalm 55:1-8

Listen to my prayer, O God,
do not ignore my plea;
hear me and answer me.
My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught

at the voice of the enemy,
at the stares of the wicked;
for they bring down suffering upon me
and revile me in their anger.

My heart is in anguish within me;
the terrors of death assail me.

Fear and trembling have beset me;
horror has overwhelmed me.

I said, "Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest-

I would flee far away
and stay in the desert;
Selah

I would hurry to my place of shelter,
far from the tempest and storm."

Confuse the wicked, O Lord, confound their speech,
for I see violence and strife in the city.

Day and night they prowl about on its walls;
malice and abuse are within it.

Destructive forces are at work in the city;
threats and lies never leave its streets.

If an enemy were insulting me,
I could endure it;
if a foe were raising himself against me,
I could hide from him.

But it is you, a man like myself,
my companion, my close friend,

with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship
as we walked with the throng at the house of God.

Let death take my enemies by surprise;
let them go down alive to the grave, [b]
for evil finds lodging among them.

But I call to God,
and the LORD saves me.

Evening, morning and noon
I cry out in distress,
and he hears my voice.

He ransoms me unharmed
from the battle waged against me,
even though many oppose me.

God, who is enthroned forever,
will hear them and afflict them—
Selah
men who never change their ways
and have no fear of God.

My companion attacks his friends;
he violates his covenant.

His speech is smooth as butter,
yet war is in his heart;
his words are more soothing than oil,
yet they are drawn swords.

Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall.

But you, O God, will bring down the wicked
into the pit of corruption;
bloodthirsty and deceitful men
will not live out half their days.
But as for me, I trust in you.

彩虹眼泪

他总是不了解
我那些假装的无所谓
关于那些是是非非
爱的疲惫又有谁能陪
我总不够坚决
才会在爱里面绕圈圈
我学得会
口是心非不要流泪
天上的眼泪
他好像懂我的心碎
懂得轻轻给我一些安慰
我们应该要了解
伤了心有种爱的美
天上的彩虹
总出现在天晴雨过
我已经懂得轻轻的放手
就算我觉得难过
你会在我身边守候
陪我一起去看彩虹

你总是不自觉
才会在爱里面绕圈圈
让他去飞
留个泪水才能学会
擦干了成长的泪水
搭上了幸福的地铁
远方有个声音
那一定会是你

only you shall perceive

transgressed across boundaries of the profound
you just did it.
in a moment of extravagant passion,
my life of adolescence.
the virgin heart.

listen not flairs and despairs of others,
believe only in the world we belong.
fear not, and never conformed to the covetous of others,
but look upon the path beheld for us.
the path, we shall set our hearts on.

the interlocked, i sensed.
whispers of the wind
breaths of those,
drawing...
bringing.

the sand in the hourglass matters no more.
be still, feel,
listen.

lonely no more.

be still...

words from the heart.
entice me.
you've got it, i know.

i laugh, i love, i hope, i try.
i heard, i need, i feel, i cry.

and i know you do the same things too.

reveal to me,
as truths unfold.
lock fingers with mine,
and trust me with your fragile.
all it takes is
a little while more,

just one more step...

the girl

the sun gazed upon us,
the birds' endearing melody.
the tress sway the beau,
the girl swirls in circles with love.
amen. :)
it is not in the air. its in us.

i see longing.
i see water.
i see a glitter.

I saw your soul,
memories.

I feel the hate.
the hate not for me,
but for yourself.

and my shoulder's not wet.

live on.

let go of my hand.
but hold on for a while.
let me look into those eyes for the last time.

LILING GOGOGO!!! I FIRMLY BELIEVE YOU CAN DO MUCH BETTER IN YOUR 2.4!! PLUS OIL!!!:)

Grace!!! MAXIMISE YOUR FULL POTENTIAL!!

Jie Huang... I'LL Beat you soon!!! better not slack and become complacent!! Vincent's still faster!!

Wei Kok!!! Train LEH!!!! well, wait for your blister to recover first then!! XD

Joey, PERSERVERE and YOU CAN DEFINITELY SUCCEED!!

J3WGL!,,, rmb our RESOLUTIONS!! ;)

its you,

chill fed the rain,
the bickering weather.
vying for the eyes,
the tongue and the love.
the sun rose early to morning,
brighten the instead, black.

the storm threw off the mud
and tried watering the paddy.
vain was it all,
flood got the deal.

the wind hid no longer,
and gushed from behind mountains.
she made her presense known.
yes, she wanted to been seen,
heard and felt.
she wanted security and honour.
she blew the rain off from home,
the sun to her, powerless was she.
scheming, indecenity, unspeakable.
threw the clouds astray,
and well hidden was the almighty ball of fire.
she stopped at nothing,
intruded at everything.
we stopped and watch.
and watch and watch.
the words spokened, speared delibrated,
the motive, clearly even unspokened.
we did not want the wind.
obviously.
glittering in the sun.
she danced and bask,
amit sarcasm and hatred.
no, Obviously not.
she did not wavier,
unshakened and still.
she lived the way she lived.
years begone to come.
i regret, so be it.
the Wind.


why do you weep my dear,
but you deserved it.

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HEYYS!!!! hahahs i haven been blogging for a long long long long time!!
LOl... so i decided to blog again when i have time...

but i relly dun noe wad to write abt so i just crapp luhs.

eh...

oh yah!

TODAY I OFFICIALLY BELONG TO A CLIQUE!!!

hahahs happy happyXD

alots of things have happened recently and i am so totally lost and drained. i just cnnt handle it all and feel like giving it all up:(. haiz.

i haven been doing Devotion,

i haven been studying,

i haven been reflecting.

i haven been making new frens,

i hav been wasting away.

shit.

AH....

okok i suck at blogging.. i cnnt seem to write a good post anymore.

sianz.

cool eh?:P

went to crash cj... sux like shit.

fats sucks

... xxx ...

hahas...
aiyo i very lazy write post lohhs.. but have so many pics to put up leh! hahas.

hmmm
today...

AIYAH my mum behind so buggy!!!:(
not tt i rude loh but she very unreasonable..
haiz.. trying to keep me cool:(

okok.
today as usual, lesson were DEAD boring..!
just tt i had inspirations tt spurred me on the draw a house flag.
but its not very good lol..
i seen the others draw like pros like tt..
dunno if i stand a chance hahas!
but i still like my drawing!!XD

den after sch i pei-ed Audrey till like 7 in the canteen!!
hahas... tts like 3 hrs lol =.=
dunno how we did it.
we crapped,
lamed,
chat,
drew,
took pics!
hahas.. yea.
den when her mum came i just went home :)

heres the pics:

me and sulin in the coomp lab hahas

Me and Rahmath advertising for toothpaste brand hahas. (my smile so fakish)

Me, jie, liping(bday gurl in the pic!) and peiling wen to celebrate bday gurl at novena sq! hahas liping so pretty inside right! XD

This is the drawings i drew for hose flag.

My Nai Sha so diluted lol...

Audrey's and mine mp3 players!!

Audrey acting cute!!!! and zi lianing...

getting bullied by audrey.. she trying to get me to take photo with her hahas..

so she used some black magic and got me in a photo with her o.0 XD

my ring///:(

Today i PON-NED school!

yea. hahas:) yah but my parents dun noe and so, dun plan to give parents letter!

hahas! lol.

i was thinking, if I can pon sch, aka lesson, aka subjuect periods,

can gals pon periods too o.0? XD

lol wad a joke!

i asked my sis this qns (as a joke)

guess wads she said!

"take pill loh!"

lol lol lol.-.-

haiz. i cant type this entry properly COS MY SIS KEEPS INTERUPTING!!!!!!!!:(

and shes looking now lol. -.-

now she's scolding.. lalalalala. im trying to ignore.

yeap! i pon sch and went to orchard hahas!

and cos my mum still woke me up early in the morning (to go sch)

i tried to waste time by taking the mrt!

all the way frm Novena, to Sembawang lol!

and den all the way back to orchard!!

hahas... sianzed.

i was totally snuffed out and dead lah!

like a walking zombie! I was so super tired lah please!:(

so, i slept on a staircase at orchard mrt o.0

lucky i changed out into mym sunday's bestest hahas.

my fav t and jeans.

if not i'll be so cold lah!

i slept to like 9 den my back started to ache lol.

(ponning sch suppose to be fun ok!)

so i made my way to breakfast corner! McDonalds!

lol.. to my horror the food was EX!

its breakfast and all the set meals were like 5++ dollars!!

im was already so totally broke:(

so i bought just 1 PATHETIC SAUSAGE MUFFIN w EGG which burnt a 3.40 inch hole in my wallet:(

for a stupid burger i paid too much.

not worth it loh please. haiz

i took pics at mac! hahas.

I ate my burger and spent an hr and a half playing games on my handphone lol.

at least i had a decent place to sit!

SO QUIT ASKING ME HOW I SPENT MY TIME PONNING SCH!!!:(

after tt was already 10++am.

time passed soooo super duper uber slow:(:(

i nearly regretted.

at least i'll hav my frens in sch.

haiz.:(

I strolled (really STROLLED) to Heeren.

cos i LOVED the HMV there hahas!

the music, movies, i love the atmosphere lah hahas..

i saw this staue on the way.. so funny lah!

it took me another hr browsing thru the whole store of 3 levels hahas.

i can practically see the sercurity ppl stalking me lol.

so i left loh!

hahas den came the part when i used the TOILET.

its so difficult to find the toilet there lah!.

some levels only hav female toilets,

some only males. -.-

when i finally found the toilet

i was already like super urgent!!!

so i removed my ring and placed it on the toilet paper holder.

i was like so scared i accidentally leave it there so i kept reminding myself abt it.

i keep reciting in my mind, chant "remb to take your ring... remb to take your ring..."

i walked out of the toilet still chanting it.

see.

I TOTALLY FORGOT ABT THE RING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was TOO engrossed trying to remind myself to take the ring back ahHHH!!HH!!! :(:(

wth.

haiz. (im still sighing)

den i bought food at Old Chang Kee (still chanting....)

walked all the way to Wisma...

had lunch at KFC ( still chanting...)

window shopped a little at the shopping centers there.. ( still chanting...)

den i saw a very cute hp pouch! (still chanting...)

it had army liked patterns on it and its in a T-Shirt like design (still chanting...)

i took the pouch and a salesman stopped me.

"heyys i didnt put a price tag on it!"

den it JOLTED me!!!

I was wondering wad i was chanting in my mind all along!
DEN i striked me!

sianz...

i nearly died!.

the ring had my name engraved on the insides!!!

AHHHHH!

i didnt noe why i can still window shop summore lol..

i saw this really nice pencil case hahas:).. :(

I wan the white one!!!

walked and walked...

window shopped ( dun noe how come i was in the mood still)

when i walked back,

i saw this squished roach on the staircase! lol..

i wanted to take a pic,

but scared ppl think im crazy...

so i walked up and down..

up and down until no one was near by den i took a pic hahas!

lame -_-

its disgusting lah please hahas.XD

so i jogged back to Heeren's toilet.

sadly,

it wasnt there:(

SAD.

SAD.SAD:(:(

my poor ring:(

someone STOLE it:(:(

(finder keepers SUCKS!)

haiz.

i still had time so i window shopped till 2pm.

den i took a train to Toa Payoh.

i saw this man on the train lol

he was kindda well built but i din notice him until he started acting funny..

lol. no, he wasnt trying to hide a bomb.

he was flexing his biceps and admiring it !!!! lol.

so funny lah hahas...

but i didnt take a pic. sad hahas.

i went to tpy library and read some books,

pestered my sis a few times to come and keep me company but she just wasnt free.

sianz.

I saw this funny sight in typ library lift! hahas:)

so at 4pm,

i went home.

wad a day of ponning sch.

PONNING SCH SUCKS!

so moral of story,

DUN PON SCH!!!! hahas :(

my ring....:(

because

haiz...
today wasnt a very good day ba!
apologise to like so many ppl today.
all because i have been so insensitive.

:(

i have nvr been like tt lah!
i mean, at that time i can tell tt they were already pissed.
its like yes, i can tell, i can feel it the first time they ans me
but to think tt i actually tried to "test out" summore and in the end pissed em even more:(

sorry amelia!
sorry beatrice!

haiz.
see!
why am i like tt?
i shld nvr be like tt lol.

den i summore totally din noe abt my good fren's b'day!!
lol its like it just paassed and i didnt noe:(:(
how?
so i wished him a day later lol.
haiz.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY "BRITNEY"!!
hahas code name:)

today i sch i pon-ned GP lecture hahas! cos we were already TOO late (5min) XD
lol
hahas.. yea, but me, yu shan, michelle and ting ting didnt waste the time off ok!
we did our GP project!!
yeap:)

den when its time for tutorial,
we went to take the LIFT up to the 5th floor.
guess wad.
we took the same lift with the NO.1 POSER in the sch
and the GP TEaCHER!!!!!!!!
its like the gurls with me started GIGGLIng hahas.
me and michelle used our files to cover our faces! hahas...
lucky she didnt noe we PON-nED lol...

hmmm..
my day very boring so nth to write leh...
did i tell you a company sent my dad a $1 check?
lol... even the postage and letter cos more den tt
hahas my-self dun send lol.



today my parents talked to me abt relationships AGAIN.
lol.. now my mum oso approved:)
but i noe its not tt easy haiz.
my mum talked to me abt you.
yea, she actually said your name.
she tried to explain to me tt things will not be easy.. because of your..
i shldnt say.
it might be too obvious its you,
yea.
but i dun care
i will perservere:)

Today when i just reached home
when i flopped on my bad,
oh my gosh!
Hao Feng called me!!
he haven called me in ages lah please:)
he and wei han were just down stairs hahas...
so i went with em to square 2 and velocity!!

reviewed.

hahas okok since you all wan me to write abt my happenings, de so be it.
lol. guess tt you all have gotten sick and tired of my rantings and 'wierd', you can say, poems?

haiz. fine:)

lettme start with ytd?
hmmm.. oh yah
nonon... shant begin with ytd!.. i'll start with tuesday!, the day tt sort of, probably changed my life (and my face)

yea! i finally underwent cosmetic surgery and removed 2 mole on my face!
hahas.. one of which was prety big i guess o.0
yep, i removed my mole baby:)
my mum said i could hav a new face for chinese new year... which is lke around the corner!
haha.. i wonder how different i will look lol!XD

there's is still a wound where the mole was at,
yea, a little stiches:(
but do not fred! the wounds'll be gone sooon.

i went to sch the next with this HUGH (i relly mean it!, HUGH) plaster across my face o.0.
stupid.
sick.
gross..
ewwwww....
hahas:)

i really make heads turn you noe!
ppl were like practically staring into my face and i bet they think im disfigured
, so to all those who asked my wad happened to my face,
i told em i have been disfigured.:) wahahaaha lol.

so i removed the plaster the next day
and yea.. the wound aint tt obvious anw:)
lol. (no more making heads turn and questions, yea)

wed~

during ct we had this game to built the tallest structure with newspapers!

and my grp won!::) we were the most practical, and smart:) cooperative too!:) see our structure!

land training day.
i nearly died 0.0
yes, reallly! so stupid lah aiyo..
after warming up, we ran 2.4km!
lol ... den after resting,
we were supposed to sprint 400m! 2 times!
den resst, den 200m! 2 times oso!
and rest,,,, 100m! 2 times!
SPRINTING!
i really died o.0
i vomitted like 4 times at one go.
lol
cramps, ( till now)
woah.
the guyys (n gurls) were nice and caring
hahas.
thx:)

den we did leg exercises ( like the running were not enuff!)
MANY leg exercises..:(
mao cheng cramped lol.
the gurls tut it was funny cos me, weihan and another gurl was treating his cramp.
and we looked like we were helping mao GIVE BIRTH lol.
so stupid-.-

aiyah!
enuuff of training... my legs still hurt :(

today was fine.. just tt MY LEGSS STILL HURT!!:(
i feel like a crippled.
oh yah hahas..
chinese lesson was stupid too.
ridiculous!
lol...
chinese lesson was the last period, and its 1.5hrs!!!
crazy lah..
so i was bored and lazy hahas
and i started drawing on my chinese ws ( didnt even bother to read it)
it started with drawing dinos,
den came tigers,
den bears,
den scribbling,
den the chinese teacher. -.- (i was too bored ok!)
i drew a pic of her with her hands on her side.

and the next moment i knew,
xiao fen lao shi was doing tt! exactly like the pic! lol... (if i knew i wld have drew a pic of her scratching her armpit! lol:))

we all laughed and teacher found out i was drawing her lol!
so stupid lah!

my chinese ws!

aiyo..
and and..
i saw a pic on the table and i tut it was nice so i decided to take a pic:)

guess wad.
i forgot to turn the shutter sound off-.-
it was so LOUD lah!
everyone stared at me and Michelle was laughing away lol.
i swear my face turned red.
lucky the teacher closed both eyes and both ears lol!
hahas.
so stupid.

and i saw this ad in the sch lift!

see! spell independent into "interdependent"! lol.. lousy ad maker XD

oh wait... is this correct? i found the word "interdependent" in my dictionary. lol!

-.- sorry....:)

haiz.. im tired! blog another time:)
yes, i promise, LESS "poems" lol. hahas.

Euphropes

IN my Distress I called to You,
and you answered me.
From the depths of the grave I called for
help,
and you listened to my cry.
You hurled me into the deep,
into the very heart of the seas,
and the currents swirled about me;
all your waves and breakers
swept over me.

I said,'I have been banished
from your sight;
yet I will look again
toward your holy temple.'

The engulfing waters threatened me,
the deep surrounded me;
seaweed was wrapped around my head.
To the roots of the mountains I sank down;
the earth beneath barred me in forever.

But you brought my life up from the pit.
through the Euphropes,
out of Eden.
Farewell to the Guarding Angels,
my Saviour,
O Lord my God.

saved

He was there.
yes, forever there.
Im sorry wavier from your path.
your narrow way i shall, and always walk from now.
thank you, Lord.

He guided me out of darkness.
into his glory you shall see.
His Love ever Unfailing,
Faith in him, we will never die.
as we Hope in Patience,
Grace we shall find sufficient.:)

To be Saved cost me Nothing.
To be His disciple cost me Everything.
i lay my life down at his feet.
I'll make me Yours.

thank you

thank you.

amusing

i dialed your number.
Thank God, the phone rang.
hello. yes, yes john here.
yah we haven been talking so...
oh ok. yea..
no! no relly its ok. yah realy its ok.
yea. thanks... bye.

you have forsakened me.
no probably not.
you were busy.
i know you were.
i just want to believe.

all this years you've been by my side.
you loved me, you cared for me.
you were always THERE for me...

where are you now?
for you, Love is your greatest, unforgiveable sin.
for me.
i grieved to see you drowning in misery.
life was never fair.
i know.

we left at the crossroads.
destined for seperate ways
you left me an angel
memories to protect me
filled me with anguish.

you told me you'll try.
try to forget.

and yes! you did.
you succeeded.
well done, but you left with me nothing.
good for you.
just let me suffer in silence.
in peace
and death.

there, you found it funny,
its a joke.

ah...
jarvis didnt sms me today:(
javis is a BAD boy!
hahas... aiyo... he didnt even reply me on msn:(
nvm.. tmr i'll be meeting him and his goonna PAY!! lol.

kayaking was okkk..
today was a super long training cos we're gonna get our one star!
yea...
capsizing in dirty, mulky, yucky waters was stupid.
when i grow up i make sure i get my maid to clean up kallang river XD
hahas okok jkjk.
i not so bad.
yep.
at the end of the training all of us kanna pumped like dunno wad. so stupid lah hahas.
and we walked in the rain.
everyone was like complaining all the way.
it was funny thou hahas!

after training me, wei han, mao cheng and choa teng ( dunno how to spell o.0) went to eat lunch.. eh no dinner at Mac!.. again at tpy hahas.
i accidentally made weihan angry:( so sad lah..
hope he forgive me already:(

haiz nvm.. tmr stil hav training loh.
yeap:)

i am gonna keep my promise, forever, for you.

obssessed

honey, we need to talk.
girl i missed you so badly babe.
please wake up.

or maybe i shld.
pathetic? yeah i guess.
life sux truly
begone be my reality, my history
my impressions, my person
my human, my life.

yes,
i'll die for you.
because not tt i love you,
but alas.
where goes my meaning for existing on this burning hell
darling, will you kill me
just dun let me bleed forever
for i rather my name be written on the stone.

i will fall at your feet.
die lying on the floor.
you will watch me disappear.
fading away.
i thought i saw you crying.
no i didnt
i wanted to tell you not to cry.
not to grieve.
hell your eyes werent even red.
no they were not.
but
i saw you smiling.
a radiant smile.
goodness me.
yes you smiled at my defeat.
my failure.
you plotted.
you schemed
how the fuck did i managed to love you?
thank you.

defeaning

lol.
today i just saw the blogger head bar.
they went to cross out the "Beta"
hahas.
lame-_-

today was "better".
yah relly.
a little,
but still better hahas:)

maths teacher still sux lol/
he found my maths worksheet on the floor and KEPT it.
lol.
maths teacher.
make me want to laugh.
hahas.:)

tmr hav kayaking!
yea.. looking forward o.0
lol.

haiz.
ytd amelia called me emo.
dun even noe waddda means hahas.
yupps im trying to laugh more often.
still cannt get over.
im having dreams now.
nightmares.
fantasies.
shit.

damn.
why wun you talk to me.!
you dun even reply my smses anymore.
nvm
i'll wait.
shit.













nightwish.within temptation.
im sorry but i have to get over you.
youre affecting me too much.
sorry.

no. its not water

stupid life.
stupid mistake.
stupid.

everything dont seems to be going right for me...:(
and i cannt say it here.
i cannt tell her.
it all seems so fucked up to me.:(

argh.
i just wun bleed!
the wound dun seem to heal
why dun you just let me die.
life now sucks.

sch sucks today too.
lessons are boring. esp lectures.
actually the tutorials are fine.
my class sux. relly big time.
bloody hell.

haiz.
seems like ive been cursing alot recently.

after sch i waited like 2.5hrs before me and weihan and benlim made your way to J8.
yea we went to meet up with my sjab sec friends
haiz.
was fun.
i really missed em.
their crappy crap
their amazing personalities that captivates me.
their joy.
i lack so much.
i wan too much.
wow... wee liang suddenly become so super tall.

fuck.
i wan to change.
im sorry but i really do.
i wan you to listen
but.
nvm.

jarvis smsed me today too! hahas.
made me happy.
but.
sorry jarvis di di.
couldnt sms back cos my bill just came.:(
617 sms.es

yea. exceded X(

great. wonderful exciting stupid day.
will tmr be better.
never.
piano lesson today sux too.
couldnt get any scales right.
teacher was nice thou.
he understands.
sorry and thankyou.

whats happening to me?

you're it.

hmm.
today the REAL lesson began le! hahas.., so sianz.. and i haven even touched my hw loh:(
sch relly sux
but the ppl kindda nice.
i love the atmosphere.
hate the lessons:(

lectures are BORING lah! so stupid...
i cannt even adsorb
keep day-dreaming..:( haiz.
why?

tutorials are fine.. at least we are involved, i think.
but chem prac... yeah! esp chem prac SUX!
the teacher is stupid.
he thinks im RESPONSIBLE!
wth.
he made me chem rep-.-
tt be the most idiotic decision.
fuck.

haiz.
hw sux.
sch sux.
teachers sux.
class sux.
everything sux.
chem teacher sux.

john rawks :)

lol... so ego :)
wadever.. JARVIS SMSED ME TODAY!
im so happy lah hahas..
he called me JOHN GOR GOR>>>
relly raised my spirits:)
aw...

i need someone to talk to.
i can only think of ONE person.. but
nvm.

i cannt stop thinking abt...
abt...
haiz.
sux

yea when i got home, my mum told me we got a new car.
woah.
its a new honda cevic! cool eh.
i took sum pics wait...
later i put it upp.
hahas
jealous?! bet you are hahas.

i dun feel like typing le.. very lazy.
hw.
sad.



oh yah... ai mei wans me to mention her name here.
so.
AIMEI IS A LOSER :)

un-dulled?

well, seems like my blog's quite dull and boring (issit?)
so i decided to dig out all the pics in my comp and upload it here!:)
wait arh..

All the discription are below the pics!

my sis and me pulling stupid faces! this was at malyasia,afamosa:)

another stupid faces hahas! so act cute!XD

OH! this one's at disco night:) me and the guyys.. see all of em so super tall lah! crazy:( tts me in the center trying to be seen!!!

Another one.. but now with EVERYONE!:) but sadly still, my face....:(

a group photo of my OG! we were playing a game and needed to take pics with tourist hahas.. i llok so ugly in dere:(

Wild Wild Wet!! my last(hopyfully not:() outing with the guyys..:S haiz. memories

I kindda like this pic with me and my sis!

My bro and I acting cute .... how come i realise i always act cute!X(

me and bro yo-ing

yo-ing again...-_-;

One of my fav pic! Junior camp rawks! Me,Sophie,Sarah,JianRui :)

Damn Nice right! only can see me! and a little of Jarvis!! his damn cute lah!XD

me and jian rui... so gayy!

Jarvis!!! OOMG!! Jarvis so cute lah! hahas... his like only pri5! i wan him as my little bro!!!!!!!!!!! I DUN CARE!!

JARVIS!!!!!!!!!XD

Sophie's Sleeping! hahas caught on cam:)

mine! i did tt! so nice.... :D

Jian Rui's...

Me,Sophie and Darling MOOOoooo....!


RubberBand-Passing-With-Straw-In-Mouth Game!! cute jarvis passing to me!

me and Jianrui being gay again.. o.0

oh.l... me and SOPHIE BODY FIT!~

TTs all..:) took me a longgg... time doing this post lah!") not so boring already right! XD