what am i hoping for...?

Can someone just come up to me and tell me everything is going to be alright?

Maybe i can hide my disappointment and fear when i'm facing you guys.

After every training i just feel more inferior.

Life can be so unfair isn't it. Yeah i'm training like twice the time you train.

Just that you're in a better position.

Why am i putting in so much effort?

I am not there nor here. I don't have a choice, do i?

Scorn on me. Sure i suck. Trample on me.