Christmas

this christmas was great. and to bring things up to another level, it was actually the first time spending christmas in HOGC.

5 months in Heart of God Church already.
this 5 months were really the best i had in my christian life.
this 5 months were the best period i had experienced the Love and Glory of God's presence.
the Lord has placed my in HOGC and pathed the way for me,
and i see it.

never have i seen such passion and fire for God.
i am proud to be here,
here in the Heart of God.

Christmas was great. awesome.

and every year, we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ.
many a times we rejoice and make ourselves happy on this special day.
for many many years, christmas has just been a day of routine celebration for us.

gifts exchange, caroles.

but have we in fact measured how it could have been like for Jesus?
and He, knowing since the day he was born, was to die on the cross for all of us.
to sacrifice Himself so tragically on the cross, like a lamb.

should He see his birthday as some sort of a celebration?

God's love for us is so, so strong.
so unconditional...
and as i type this, i feel so guilty. so broken...
as i imagined the scene,
Jesus carrying the weight of the cross up the hill,
but it wasnt the weight of the cross which was hurting Him.
it is the immense weight of our sins on His shoulders.

and He was so willing to bear it for us.
He was yet human. not having God-like strength to bear that load.
nobody. at all could have done that, without the Love that Jesus had for us.

that was not all,

Him, climbing up the hill and falling 3 times over.
and as He looked up and saw around Him,
people He so loved,
the reason why He was going through all that...

and yet they were spitting on Him!
they were despising Him!
scorning and laughing!

and i choked...
how could we be so, so
disgusting?
and i question my worth,
do a single bit did i deserve any tinge of His Love.
and tears welled up in my eyes.

no, not at all.

what was going through the mind of human Jesus when He was nailed to the cross?
experiencing excruciating pain for people who didnt even appreciate what He was going through at all....

and He'd seen it all from the day He was borned.
Christmas huh.
and the only reason why christmas existed was the day He had to die on the cross.

why should we feel so happy?
why should we be celebrating?

do we know at all, why we celebrate and exchange gifts on christmas?

no, we are not celebrating christmas because it is Jesus' birthday.

but we rejoice and give thanks to God every year because He has given us the most precious and most important and invaluable gift of our entire existence.

He gave us something we so do not deserve, and in fact we deserved death.
and this present, so precious,
we have this joy in our hearts.
this joy and comfort in God's Everlasting Love.

that is why we celebrate Christmas.

we celebrate the Love of God.