alone

repressed. beyond my control.
sometimes things happen,
they happen for a reason?
i have nothing, no one.

the guilt of my shortcoming,
my sin and shame.

the curse that lives with me,
lie in my heart forever.
when suddenly love forbids.

the greatest power on earth,
with me. yet i forsake, and forget.
how could i,
throw it away?

i used to stand against all odds,
no fear, i believed.
i prayed for strength.

what have becomed of me,
take a look at me now.
i am ashamed, appalled, abhored and dismayed.

i lay abandoned, destroyed, sin-felt dirty.
i am alone.