Saturday, December 23, 2006

amazing grace~

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

T'was Grace that taught...
my heart to fear.
And Grace, my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear...
the hour I first believed.

My Chains are Gone,
Ive been Set Free!
My God, My Saviour, has Ransomed ME
and Like a Flood, His Mercy Reigns
Unending Love, Amazing Grace:)

Through many dangers, toils and snares...
we have already come.
T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...
and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me...
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be...
as long as life endures.

When we've been here ten thousand years...
bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise...
then when we've first begun.

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me....
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, I see.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

swirls of emotions ''

wow..
went wild wild wet ytd
interesting day.
how could i ever forget?
thx guyys:)

let me fail today alride?
ha. yea..
gonna appeal rite?
damn.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Cruel.

imagine.
climbing up from a bottomless pit-
lake of Black Flames licking your toes.
i wanna get outta here. now.

hanging from a climbing stone, my only hope.
save me.
get me outta here. now
i rise my head.
admire the pure white above.
wanting me.
i want.

swollen fingers from falling
and climbing
again and again.
my motivation,
God

=Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly=

blogging again, shld i not be?
irritating bro just got of the comp, watched Naruto.
Great ha? boredom killed the me, save me please someone.
Haofeng called me outta fer WildWildWet tommorow. finally:)

Managed a smile,
still drowned in memories of the 5 days. in Bangkok
too late:) smile.

listening to H.I.M again, like the music...
please no... yes, obsessed already. man
under the rose, what a name. my blog remained empty.

memories... argh great.
Todays Felix day. yea, mum's greatest joy and pain too.
yea, wish you.

Woah, camps in only few days time. looking forward? yes.
be meeting em soon. cool=) look fer me at sentosa k?
and yea... todays the 12th, so pae posting results be out in 2 days!
please.. God im sorry. relly.
please put me in Ajc if its your choice, and Olevels good too. Thx
i wanna evangalise. please forgive me.

Yea. Christmas coming too! decos up? nah.. mum thinks too troub. great.
im waiting for christmas.
please take note of the Real Meaning behind Christmas yea.
Remembance of the Birth of Christ, my, our Saviour.
accept him, love him
believe him
be saved.

Happy early Birthday.

too late

how dumb am i?


dun frown, jianrui lol

baka.

left behind, taken away +

back in Singapore, frm bangkok.
wonderful time. phew

things were not as bad as i thought thou, i did not get shot. yea.
shopping was life dere for me. happened everyday without fail. cheap cheap cheap. dun i sound like a bird now not? lol

bought lots of clothing:
a long sleave beigh shirt, like tt
a short sleave cool shirt, enjoy tt
a rugged nice looking belt, love tt
a pair of super wonderful looking jeans. im in love oredi:)
boxes, of socks ( wholesale nia )
2 pairs of shoes, normal and canvas, totally mermised and obsessed with em yea:)

experienced good and bad times dere, wonderful mosta time=)
almost lost a sd memory card
camera spoilt
argued witha mum
watch mum had rough times,
din make frens yea

made eye contact with her on coach
nah... too young.
comeon! you caught her starin at ya in the eye!
yes but...
nvm, leaveit

great. now shes gone witha wind

made frens with a little guy in tour grp
played witha him.
his only 8 yet so cool bout him
talk only 8-9 sentences,
wish could switch brother yea. pls greenday boy.
wanna switch kay? mines too irritating
i could haf both ha.
left without farewell. hmmm
regret yea. many things left undone neh?

wanted to noe em.
whats wrong with moi!!

yea
watashi no waii naiie neh?
hai!

sorry haofeng, din reply your sms hahas.
God?, please put me in Ajc fer first 6mths? thx:)

Monday, December 04, 2006

The Taste of Tears

Going to Bangkok in less than 24 hours time...
and still not at all excited.

scared? yea.
what if the plane crash?
what if i get caught by corrupted authorities there?
what if some terrorist kidnapped and beheaded me?
what if i get beaten up by some gangsters there by GLANCING at em?
what if i get blown up by some gangsters?
what if...

help me!!!:(

haiz..
just have to reply on the Lord.

SOMEONE GIVE ME AN ACTIVATION CODE FOR WINDOWS XPPPPP!!! thx:)

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Slain"

lol.

wad a special timing to blog eh? its like 2:40am and im still wide awake blogging:)
hmmm. went out alone at like 2pm, roaming the streets of town alone. takashimaya, wisma, plaza singapura! walked fer like 2 hours so until Gab finally arrived. window shopping was fun, Exciting, Cool and Wow?

4pm: met mao and frens--
2 "gorgeous", hot?, gals (wow?)
1 simple original super cool lady
1 ready-to-hang-on guy
1 mao,

yea. wad a bunch

hang around, make frens, flirted with darth, window shopping (again)
hahas. lol.

darth's cool
cherish her.

pwiff's on
love her

amilia's good
watch her.

kelvin's nth-to-say
remember him.///

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Monday, November 27, 2006

Saturday, November 25, 2006

The Day Before ~

Woah!! everybody.. prepare to get jealous!:) MY sis b'dae party was ytd and she invited all her frens over.. and guess wad!XD Muhahahaha.. my Mum bought a Creative Zen V for both of us! OMG right?? soo cool! i mean the design itself is already very nice... mines orange and white while my sis is black and orange.. omg! wwwwell, my mum oso got herself a Camcorder:) at a very good price.. so me and my mum went home HAPPILY.:p

When we got home, i dashed to my room to devour the beauty of my newness! Life's good to me:) Praise God! the packaging was relly cool and all my accessories are white while my sis's black. Innovative and creative for Creative to think of tt!

Den i loaded all my songs in but it took so long.. like like urmm 4 hours? haiz.. wad can you expect.. i had to rip all my music Cds in and transfer the songs in my w700 walkman phone.. poor walkman.. now you will be not playing music le..:( miss you.. but yea:)

Wait wait.. i post some pics i took ~







pictures taken with my phone!
Cool right? i mean.. its soo Cool! Muhahaha! jealous?XD

Thursday, November 23, 2006

my final stand

a total mistake.
not for me, but alas! for you.

if tt was what you see, you were nvr a slave.
no.. tt wasnt right. yes, you were nvr a slave but yes now you are.
a slave to yourself, to yourself, kyros.
Humanity stands before you as fools. belittled by you as unconcious monsters blinded by evil. ha.

disappointing, disgusted, trash.

life is forver like tt to you issnt it?
forever mocking you, killing you.
dun you always wanted it to end? you will never be able i tell you. for this is life.
you are not the only one going thru it.

let me ask you.
can a boy ask for forgiveness if he dun even noe wad really went wrong? do you?
so even wad if you did.
what is forgiveness about? issit about feeling sorry that you made me angry? feeling bad that you disappointed me?
i'll tell you now. forgiveness is not about all tt.
you have belittled it.well, you might not be the only one who have belittled it.
Forgiveness is about understanding how the other party is feeling, why he is feeling like tt and not feel bad about it, but telling yourself that you will never do that to him again... have you? do you?

so what is all this about Begging for forgiveness? issit all about the other party? no.
it is all bout yourself, and deeds, you forgiving yourself. and repenting
ha.

disappointing, disgusted, trash.

so issit all about apologising, MULTIPLE TIMES? ha.
has it never dawn upon me tt you had feelings? do you really feel that way? do you noe how hard i tried? omg. i tut you did. so you nvr did.
you never did noe i went thru tt much just to have had you think tt way.

haiz.. what was i thinking to have tut tt way:)

slavery eh? was it ever. ha.

Another thing.. wad is being caring, or caring for someone. will there be ever too much? omgomg... what was i exactly thinking! Wad was i?
you still dun get it.. you will never will..
disappointing, disgusted, trash.

Fools.

fools.

are they? what are dey to you den? or in your language, FRIENDS you call FOOLS?
what are you? with emotions? do your emotions tell you that ppl caring and loving you are called fools? den i was a fool den:)
thanks alot.

what will hurt you...? me? fools? love?
ha. what has ever hurt you man? the world? has no one ever been? omg.
for is there as such : too many friends?
too much love?
and tt this "too much" cause you to become somone who is unappreciative? unappreciative? of wad? love. here here here.. who are you to say that boy? God?
dun you tell me tt you can read into my heart and read me like a book? ha.

no. no one is missing you.
there will never be.
as so you have been
and yes,


you deserve all tt.:)

+ The Stolen Child +

.. preliems over, O levels over, friendship almost too... reached the light at the end of the tunnel, but guess the light wasnt tt appealing now eh? haha.
Reading a book called "the stolen child" now, attempting to fufill the desire and thirst of my hell. a search for a dream, he discovered that there are many roads to a single dream. the boy wans to fly - to a land where he is loved. the boy stands hard as a stone, in a world he cnnt rise above. but his dreams give him wings;
the boy searches for a meaning in life and other dreams to replace his disgusting past. the boy experiences the trials and tribulations of change - in his family, friends and most of all, HIMSELF.

to our lost generation and to being found someday...
"come away, o human child!
to the waters and the wild
With a faery, hand in hand,
For the world's more full of weeping than you
can understand."


please understand..

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

the post of the to-be-post

YAY!!!!! :) i am goin to post the post to be posted on the day which i will post to post the post which is to be posted on the day my post is going to be posted...

so keep posted on this post to-be-posted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

Monday, July 31, 2006

| touched ;') |

Nvr had better frens lyke eu guyys loh:) hahas! :D Sundae nite was a relly cool nite lah! in e day, Jianrui came to my church and lyke become sho "hyper"~ hahas.. yea, practically flirting around with everyone dere lah!:) hahas, but his cool lah! lol. yah... paying FULL attention to the Sunday classXD
Den lata me and jianrui left church durring cell grp and strolled to Doby to fetch MAOLER!! yepps:) we w8ited lyke sho super long at the new cine and window shopped at plaza sing b4 finally get to meet mao ler ( maoler..XD dun eu ever do tt again:) wink*) hahas! yupps:) And we got lyke lost in CIne lahs! stupid jianrui... anyhow bring us wrong direction loh :P

when we reached church, our cell grp oredi ended (oops) hahas! yea.. everyone were lyke staring at us lah! sho embarressing loh.. den jianrui went to make it worst by ANNOUNCING to every single one tt we had a new guest! yea.. felix loh! lol. he made everyone lyke intro emself to ml, making him feel sho out-of-place -_-; crazy jianrui XD the worst of all, he request tt all of us sing ml a welcome song lol. AND HE LEFT ML STANDING IN E CENTRE OF E CROWD FEELING SHO SHY!!! Stupid jianrui! dun eu ever be more sensible!!!!! X( lol yea.. i got to lyke pull ml away and make him sit beside me. Stupid jianrui once again :p

Yupps:) den ml came to mie hse to "study" hahas! we ended up tryng to entertain my lit bro lah! hahas! sho funny lah. lol. after tt we headed str8 away to cityhall where we were suppose to me kor to go fer e band concert:) (actually we made kor w8ed fer us lyke 1/2hr. paiseh! hahas sorry kor :P) yea. i actually met mie sjab frens dere -_-; sho embaressing.. dey were lyke. John, why are eu wearing lyke tt?? ( yea.. was lyke tryin* to act gothic with my rings, and stuff) Not e john eu always noe!!:) i just love to put on diff characteristics lah! hahas, den i was asked to book sites fer lyke 13 ppl o.0 yea.

after tt 5min walk dere, me, felix, and kor tried to book seats:) of course, ppl were lyke staring at us ( lol. it was suppose to be free sitting) yah lo! dey took lyke ferever to come lol. haiz. kor was lyke HELLOing everyone he knew 0.o make me feel sho outta place loh, and of course, naughty felix suggested tt we try to bully e class councillor! hahas!) sho super funny lah!, but the class councillor totally ignored us -_- sho spoil-fun. lol.

the band concert was nice.. ( with conductors riding horses* hahas! inside joke lah! and cute pri sch boiis trying to tiptoe and play deir instruments! hahas) besides tt, me and ml keep dozing off loh:P sho embaressing... somemore kpr went to take a pic of me slping:( sho super ugly lah! eeew!! pls delete it kor:O pls:) yea.. after e band concert, me kor and felix headed fer Suntec! yeaps!
hahas! we window-shopped, and walked around, chatting and chatting:) sho super hyper denXD hahas. yea. den dere was tis guyy hu lyke asking us to help him redemm some kind of coupond but toally fail! in tink e reception noes 0.o lol. when we returned tt guy e receipt, he demanded tt coupon and me were lyke telling him we dun hav. he probaly din believed us and tut tt we cope it lah.. tts why he din say thx :( sho bad lohh! must put my voodoo to good use again ( what was tt guy name again :)) lol

hahas.. den we went to eat dinner, not letting tt stupid guy affect our celebrating mood:) yepps, kor and ml treated me to dinner lah! sho super nice of em! THX FELIX AND KOR! hahas yea. den we went to get kor's voodoo doll. aft tt we met kor's sis and decided to go home cos its lyke super late le:)

STUPID MISTAKE! i decided to take bus 857 home, thinking its a direct bus 0.o i totally MISSED that bus stop and went all e way to yo chu kang lah! BOO* sho frightened at tt time:( dunno how to get back:( and the area i alighted was sho super dark and im lost. oh no.. it was oredi abt 1015pm and lost in a strange area:( luckily felix lived around tt area and taught me how to get home:) thx felix, again:) fer helping meXD haiz.. felix accompanied me on e fone sho i din feel tt lonely:) thx once again:P im sho blessed to hav eu as a fren:) kor and da jie oso called to express deir concern:) thx! when i finally got home it was lyke 1130 loh but my parents din scold lol. haiz. super tired, bathe and got on e fone with felix, thinking back, tt incident was relly funny o.0 lol. hahas, yea, im safe now. yea, safe.

today ml got back his fone yepps! hahas.
tis en rui, signing out:)

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Konnichiwa!!

Yay.. and boo..haiz! Today woke up and found out tt MISS ish not going to chin hao's hse todae:( Haiz.. But morning was greeted by FELIX!! Tts sho nice of him la! hahas.. lol. still feeling down thou:9 got Kor into trouble and not being able to meet MISS todae:( haiz. lol nvm.. must not let tis thingies affect mie dae!! hahas.. lata mayb ask felix if he wanna go out! 0.o ( felix if eu see tis, tell me if u wan:)0 ) yea...

Todae sho bored lah! my parents and bro went to watch 'pirates' yea.. sux loh! lol im still stuck at home tryin to let tyme past. yep sho aiyoyo... hope can get out of tis nest lata in e afternoon loh:)

YAY!! finished my physics worksheet le! :D finally.. after a few hrs 0.o.. manz! i'm sho slow lah! Yupps, now left e 2 chemistry revision paper and tuition hw to do-_-.

Preliems is lyke sho close le lah and i haven relly even started revising loh!! My frens are lyke chionging and revising... and me slacking lyke mad. MUS WORK HARD OREDI LAH! Sho relly hope tt me and mie frens and do well fer our preliems and Os and CYA guyys in TOP JCs! hahas.. yea! i wanna get into VJC.. but its lyke 4 pts:P yea.. tts tough, but will try me BESTEST lah!

Hahas.. tryin to date back and remb wad happened e past few daes?.. ermm.. yupps! went to kor's hse ytd with a few of mie relly good budds! hahas:) Kiddna FUN!! we went to eat ban mian ( din noe wad was ban mian at first o.0) lol. RELLY YUMMY LAH!! esp e one at geylang its sho cool! Den we went back to kor's hse to SPLASH* yea.. SWIMMING!! but i was lyke sho full and gt to w8 a little while la.. b4 im allowed to swim by felix:) thx felix fer being such a nice guyy to mie! He was lyke taking care of me when i was sho full? yep... im such a weakling lah! lol. Den we went to eat SMELLY BEANCURD! yea!... it waz kiddna cool to noe tt im goin to eat tt rubbish fer e first tyme.. and i was lyke sho excited!... BUT... i found out tt its oso my last tyme, i tink... YUCK!! its sho smelly lah! lyke eu noe.. rubbish bins, mouldy drains and eeeww!! NEVER AGAIN!:P kiddna kewl thou! Den kor started taking pics:) dere was tis pic where we took e toufu with us holding chopsticks over it:).. but when i was getting ready to hold mie chopsticks dey finished taking and left me out of e pic!! SHO BAD LAH!haiz. den When i wanted to lyke dao bao some back fer miee mum ( to scare her) HAHS! den she forbidded me to bring it back hm. Boo.. sho i gave em to kor. Haiz. It was damn fun at kor's hse lah! sho yepps:) THX KOR!XD

Dating back again... yepps! Tis fateful dae when felix fone got confiscated! ( stupid koh... tyme to make full use of e Voodoo doll XD) hahas.. kkz.. back to topic oredi. er... yea. his newly bought k610i got confiscated lah! felix was sho down n pissed. mie too:( but lets cheer up! felix mum called koh and damand back e fone:) yesh! his gonna return it on Monday! Yea.. we took our class foto on tt day too:) i tried to smile lah.. after all e bad things tt happened on tt dae.. hope i come out well in e pic, 4C rawks manz!! after sch mie and marcus acc felix out to tp, to cheer him up :P AND WE TOOK FOTOS!! heres one of em:).err.. how do i put em here ?? eu mus tilt ya head to see it:) tts me in marcus-es' Shades and tts FElix!XD

Yupps:) i think i wrote enuff oredi:D CYA and MSHS SUX! XD
heres Adresu, out :P!

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Mine NEW* Blog:D

Yepps, I finally created a new blog... yea after giving up on my pervious blog;) yea
haiz... after much tyme den finally came up with i name lohhs! sho diff to think! hahs i oso dun noe wad to write to write fer mi first post sho yea, i'm listening to Geek In The Pink* ?? no link. Anwz ya... kindda feeling excited tt i'm goin my Kor's hse tmr to swim:) yesh! hahas... finaay... haiz. im total broke loh! spent a bomb on a s.s ring o.0 hahas! but i dun relly regret it loh! next tyme i show eu guyys!

yea.. and preliems ish lyke sho close le! hopes tt we will all study very hard and get to good JCs.. yea and score fer our O's! yea guyys? Rawk On!

heres jert, out;)